The Roads That Lead

I am naturally restless, can’t sit in a single spot for very long. When I was a child my mother always used to tell me to sit still. Always moving around and fidgeting, curious about everything, always wondering what’s happening here, what’s going on there?

This makes it so much more worse not having a job, I mean forget about my ego, being the only man among three women and me being the only one without a job, I spend all day at home with nothing to do and I’m going crazy. There are so many things I want to do with my life, so many plans and ideas, but without a job, or money, I can’t do any of them.

One other problem is that I like freedom, being able to make my own decisions and not living by anybody else’s rules. I don’t want to have to wake up every morning and it’ll be like the same routine, I tire easily of monotony.

Because of this I haven’t applied for any job, not that they are there for the taking but I just don’t want to feel like I’m stuck in one place so that any other opportunities that come up have to be side-lined. I also want to start my own thing so I’ll have the drive and motivation to stick with it and know that I’ll feel the sense of accomplishment when I achieve my goals. Goals I’ve set for myself.

I decided not to be caught in the scenario of applying for a job and sitting waiting for a call that might never come. I feel like if I am actively doing something, I have that feeling that something is going to happen. I already started a few things on the internet to try and make money and I’ve written a proposal for a project.

I suppose I should apply for a few places, send out some to see if I’ll get any places and if I don’t like I won’t take it. So I’ll spread it out and see where they land me.